Monsieur Beaubourg

HAHAHA.. i bought it!
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I named it Edward. aha. go figure.

in moderation.

ugh.. i hate this. i hate halifax. i find it boring and lame. i find the people predictable and its bothering me.
im bored bored. i miss my girls. i hate that we're so spread out.
i found something that i love though. Its the new louis vuitton beaubourg bag... in which i hope to purchase before the end of the summer. i cant go through next year without it, its gorgeous.
I stayed in this house all day.. except to get out for about 5 to run to Pete's Frootique's before it closed. I'll probably go out this weekend. I dont really want to. i feel more like im only going out to let people know that im actually doing something up here. I dont have a job... but i dont really want one... here. I want to just go home next month and have my old tourist bureau job again... or maybe even the C@P job.. and then be reunited with my poor jessie.. whose had to stay home all this time without me in bed with her.. that pitiful dog. Jessie's my shih tzu btw. Im obsessed with her.. shes the shit.

i feel as if i only came here to find a relay... or a boy... a companion? but once here i realized that they'll eventually find me. I have two great loves with my girlfriends and i have Jessie who i've left at home because i thought i had to be here.
Well its ten... i opted out of my movie night with kendra for this... so my rules for tonight is read as much as i can and do my best to stay away from all food until tomorrow.
& i think Ellen is a repeat.. again!

Be Careful What You Wish For Cuz You Just Might Get It

Heyy! its almost June... but summer has yet to officially begin.
currently i am home, sitting in my bed with Jessie. I've been here since last monday and i already hate it. I moved to the city for the summer... well... it isnt really a big city... but at least its considered one around here. American Idol finished up too, David Cook took home the prize. Plus i got my marks back... and i was a little disappointed, i did poorly in french and in religious studies but i can work on them next year. Ellen is on in 5. I love watching daytime tv.. it makes my life. oh... plus im trying to gain weight. I know, it sounds crazy for me... but i seen pictures of myself and find myself much too sickly skinny. its pretty disturbing. so lately i've been eating lots. lots of peanut butter and chicken and banana's and stuff. and working out in hopes to becoming solid. Its sort of working so far. no complaints.


Sex and the City movie comes out soon. Im insanely excited for it, its retarded. It looks as if its going to be so good. apparently one of the main characters die in the film. I heard speculation that its Samantha... in im convinced that its Mr. Big. The shoes, dresses, and belts in the film is enough to make all the gays go see it and make it come in 1rst. That doesnt even include the single life woman, the mothers, and the younger generation whose been influenced by the shows themes and lifestyle. I personally think its going to be an excellent movie. I've heard that it had received negative reviews but im guessing its straight men who had written them. thats the only group of people the show doesn't cater to.
Okay, Looks like Ellen is about to start so i leave you with this for now.

My Diet

Hollywoods black book of diet secrets = amazing book... seen it on Ellen, a segment on how to take care of your skin (first book about beauty secrets) and it really made me get into it. from reading, what i learned is.
vinegar kills appetite.
lemons are good to cut through fat
eggs whites = great protein.
oatmeal in the morning = fat burner throughout the day.
benefiber = helps your life, and your pant size.

there were many more things in which i picked up on but im forgetting to mention them at the moment... I'm very conscious of my weight although sometimes i feel as if it doesn't show...
yeah, i would say im pretty skinny though.. skinnier than the average joe.

right now im currently watching 'The View' a show in which i love to watch on weekdays and boiling three eggs.. this way i find it easier to remove the yolk...

im also a huge fan of peanut butter... lots of fat but good fat and protein.. i melt a couple tbs in the microwave and add benefiber. its a great treat.

also frozen fruits is something im completely obsessed with eating... especially frozen mixed berries... they stain my teeth but blueberries have amazing antitoxins that help your blood vessels. Frozen grapes are also an amazing treat for when i get hunger pains.

Another thing i'll do in the day is drink a protein shake... mixed only 1 scoop... because your body will only absorb what it needs and the rest will be executed. some powders offer 40g of protein which is a little much for someone who is not weightlifting or trying hard to build huge muscle mass. I'll mix my cup with half water and half skimmed milk... to avoid the carbs... but they are good carbs and great protein in the milk too.

Yogurt is another thing in which i suggest having and when youre out to lunch with the girls... garden salad, no dressing but vinegar on the side... or even spinach salad!

when drinking... diet pop... and vodka. drink little.
also chardonnay or semillon ... white wine has less calories than red although red is better for you plus the dryer the wine, the fewer the calories.

so holla at yo gurl, and ch'yo homebody and at your perfect beach body. ;)

April is for fools.

ahh. alright.. the beginning of april today... 25 days away from my birthday. pumped.
i just got back from signing the lease with Kelly Meagher... my new roommate.
long story of how i know her... all im saying is that this year... at X was one of the best years of my life, actually it probably was the best.
i've made so many new friends... 2 that matter though... girls, with whom i love.
but better yet, im now comfortable in my own skin, much more than i were last year. i mean.... i probably still have a ways to go but im getting there and thats nice to know.

its 9:42 and i have a class at 10... it snowed outside and its super slushy. i feel like skipping the class but i know that i did so yesterday, for my 8:15.

on a much brighter note, its official... im not living with my sister next year... finally i cut the ties... and i can finally move on with my life. i need some space... she needs the room... aha... love that quote and only now do i see what it really means.
with her, it has been a rocky year... mostly me just keeping things to myself and watching her waste away or go down the wrong path... i know she will get better but i also know that i cant help her any more than i already have... its for her to grow up... because i have.

promise i will go into gruesome detail when i have more time on my hands.. which, this semester, i have lots of. time.

but overall it has been an intense year. could have been better but im insanely glad on where it has taken me.

and thats a nice feeling.
i cant believe i abandoned this thing for the entire academic year... sept-april have really changed my life around.

*EDIT... CUT OUT LOVE LIFE SECTION*